OFF DAY

Today was my off day..spent it with roz. She got me a GUESS wallet for christmas! =) Gosh..i bet it must have cost a bomb. She actually wanted to get me a shirt from zara...but the one i like is out of stock. =( But its alright...i actually need a new wallet. My current wallet from Quicksilver is tearing apart..i really like it but the quality just sucks. Why? Cos its MADE IN CHINA. No offense to my chinese friends...but China really needs to improve on their Quality Control. Thats why i really think twice before purchasing a product made in china.

Oh guess what? I WAS ON TIME. Hahaha.. It was raining when i got to the bus stop outside her place. Apparently, she couldnt find an umbrella at home...guess what i did? I actually asked a lady, who was waiting for her bus, to lend me her umbrella for awhile to pick roz up. Its a pretty long walk from her place to the bus stop and i didnt want her to get wet. The lady decided to lend it to me..she was so nice...actually too nice because she left her umbrella with me! I think her bus came while i was running to roz's place. Oh wells, i decided to leave it at the bus stop..roz wanted to throw it away. Like why!? Someone may need it too. Hey! i've got an idea.. Wouldnt it be good to have vending machines selling umbrellas at all the bus stops? They actually do have these kinda vending machines in Japan. So why not have it here? Hmmm...i can actually make money out of this. Wahahaha~

We went to P.S. I actually wanted to repair my v3, it gives this squeaking sound whenever i open and close it and its not smooth. So we headed to the service centre, OMG...the queue was insane..took a Q number and while waiting.. we walked round looking for a gift for vA. Oh oh..i think i'me beginning to like pink t-shirts. Not the ones ah bengs wear.. I saw this pretty light pink long sleeve tshirt at NIKE.. I think i like it. Hahaha.. Anyway..arghh...i didnt service my phone cos i missed my turn and roz said there was nth wrong with my phone.

After that, we went to bugis cos roz couldnt find what she wanted to get for vA. Bugis...the land of CHAO AH BENGS. Roz wanted to get a hot choc drink at coffee beans..while waiting for it to get ready..i was jus looking around and i chanced upon a group of FREAKING young BENGS starring at me..WTH. They are def smaller in size than me and they had the balls to stare at me. LOL. They continued starring at me as i was walking out...guess they were jealous that i was with a hot chic. Hur. Poor kids..they only can target girls at their LEVEL. Hahaha... Oh and we bumped into them again at THE EDGE..as usual...they started staring again. -_- I really couldnt be bothered to stare back..so i just rolled my eyes like what girls do..hahahaha. Riiight...enough about them. Roz got vA a really nice necklace which has a key on it...not gonna mention the price. Hahaha... Yeap..after that we headed back to town..did lots of window shopping over at paragon. Too bad both of us were almost broke. Hahaha... I cant wait to get my pay!

It was already 9 and roz had to go home. Oh i'm apparently her ipod..cos she told her mum that she was only with her ipod. =( Anyway...i sent her home. Wanted to meet Tim kor for supper at adam rd but i think he just felt like staying at home. Hahaha~

I really had a great time with roz today...cant wait for her party which is next tues. Yupp.. I dont wanna think abt tmr...its really tiring to worry abt the BIG DAY...the day i'm not really looking forward to. Let me end with this song lyrics by Yellowcard called Gifts And Curses. Go listen to that song..u will LOVE IT. =) gd night.

Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.

(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(she is the one), and I have to fight this,
(she is the one), a villian I can't knock down.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?

(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(she is the one), and I will be haunted,
(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you ...

bren <3

still feeling guilty

I didnt sleep the whole day...infact more than 24hrs. I was so so troubled over what i did. I jus couldnt sleep. At abt 5am...cliff and i decided to go for a cycle...we cycled to east coast park...took us abt 30 mins to get there. We stopped at this jetty...sat down by the beach and had a guy talk. Just as we were getting into the flow..it started to drizzle..WTH. However, God answered my prayers and He stopped the rain. =) Anyway..it was really soothing to my heart as i was jus chilling by the beach...while listening to the waves and looking out into the horizon. I was looking forward to see the sun rise...but the sky so cloudy. Oh wells..that wasnt my main intension for going to the beach. I wanted to seriously think over whether to go into a LDR or not. I really want to...but i just cant seem to be able to gain her trust, because of some mother f*cker. I cant exactly remember what i was thinking about...arghh...shall not dwell on it.

Both my parents were awake when i got home....as usual...my mum was nagging...where as my dad was just watching the morning news. Abt 15 mins later...my dad came into my room to talk to me..He really could read my mind and emotions...he could tell i was troubled over some stuffs..but i just refused to admit. Siigh...i wish i could tell my dad everything...but i dont think he will understand. i was jus lying on my bed listening to my pod waiting for time to jus pass till the start of my shift.

Started work at 4...(I WASNT LATE). The cafe was quite quiet for abt 2 hrs...after that...the cafe was crowded. When it came to crunch time..i couldnt perform...i couldnt even create the foam for the coffee. Dont know what was wrong with me... Thank God timed passed so quickly...i was really tired and my heart was jus earning to spend time with someone. Alright...guess i shall stop here.. gd night. =)

bren

sigh

I think i've really got a big mouth. Went for supper with Clifford and Geri...we had a casual conversation abt how fat ppl are cute...and out of no where...clifford asked me "so u think she's not cute la?" Then cliff and geri were laughing...and i thought they were mean but in a funny way...so i decided to call roz and tell her abt it. Ever since that call...there was this AWKWARD SILENCE. Geri wasnt her usual cheerful self and roz didnt feel like talking to me. This thought came, " OMFG!!! What did i jus do?!" How can a lady's man like me make such a mistake?! Rule 1: NEVER TELL A GIRL THAT SHE's FAT...though its jus a joke...esp when she isnt at all. Wow...how can i forget that? Sigh...i can never redeem myself for this foolish mistake. I really gotta think of the consequences before saying stuff. Looks like i still hv got lots to learn. Arrgh...i've got nothing else to say for now except I'M SORRY...

SorrySeemsToBeTheHardestWord

bren

Brendan's BACK...back again...

hey! i'm back to blog after a month! Hahaha~ I'm pretty tired now...its 415a.m...jus came back from Ministry Of Sound. I must say that Zouk has got tough competition here..their rnb mixes are not as good as M.O.S...However i find that their Retro mixes are much better than M.O.S. Hahaha~

I had a really blessed saturday at sentosa! Campus ( a youth ministry of New Creation Church) organised a beach outing at sentosa followed by praise&worship and service at suntec. I was part of the games comm., dont even know if i was treated as part of them because i couldnt attend the first 2 meetings. Firstly because i had basic theory trial test on one saturday and secondly my phone screwed up big time on another sat. Sucks huh? On the very next day, charmaine lim (games comm head) msged me saying that she wanted to meet me after 3rd service. I thought she wanted to go through with me the stuffs that were brought up during the meeting i couldnt attend, but she actually wanted to kind of "counsel" me. She asked me if i could commit. Gosh..i had a feeling that they thought i planned my trial test on the date they were meeting and planned to screw up my fone. Like what the hell..I'M NOT GOD! Oh oh...she also brought along her assistant to the "meeting". They told me nicely that they needed my commitment and that they didnt want to think that i'm an irresponsible person and kick me out of the comm la. I dont know how to say this...but they sent out a pretty strong msg in a very very nice way. Its so "leader liked". They try their best not to condemn you. I must admit that i felt that there was a lil bit of condemnation after that "meeting". Anyway...i only attended one meeting which was the games "dry-run" held at sentosa last saturday. It was pretty fun..gotta know the comm members and how the game goes. That was also the day someone suggested that the games comm memebers wear PINK during the actual event! I said OMG...but deep down in my heart went "YEAH YEAH! I'm gonna get a Hot Pink T-shirt! Woohoo!" ROFLOLMAO! I went down to topman and i bought this really hot pink t-shirt. my first pink t-shirt! lol! Oh and i wasnt the only one who got the HOT PINK. =p

Then came the actual day! I woke up at abt 8 plus, changed into my HOT PINK t-shirt and thank God i had red berms to go with it.. Rushed down to harbourfront to meet the games comm at 915. The initial plan was to meet at macs (harbourfront) at 8 but i overslept. heh. Wow...its seriously no joke wearing hot pink..i really gained a lot of attention from the general public. While i was waiting for the train, there was this indian lady who looked at me at the corner of her eyes from head to toe la. WTH! As if she has never seen a guy so hot in pink like me. Its ok...i forgive her. =) Anyhows..after we arrived, we started to set up and cordon the area where the event was gonna be held at. While setting up...i saw this 2 malayus approach this 2 really hot caucasians who were by the beach having a lil chat while soaking up in the sun. The 2 malayus asked them this "Hi, do u think we can be friends?" (imagine them saying it in the malay accent sial) ROFLOLMAO! Thats one of the worst pick up line i've ever heard. The 2 poor ladies were stunned because 2 BOYS approached them..BOYS...not MEN. I really felt like rescuing those 2 poor ladies from those malayus...unfortunately i had a task to complete and i didnt want to further embaress those poor boys. Lol! Damn funny la! Ok la..*respect to the boys for having the BALLS to approach them. Lol! *ahem* Alright...time flew pretty quickly and we prepared to leave for suntec at abt 6. Gosh...i was so so tired on the bus...took a short nap but it wasnt enough. I didnt think i could stay awake during service...because i had a slight headache and cold. i really couldnt take it...my brains were running on solar power and the lights were pretty dim. However i managed to stay awake during service...hahaha~ praise jesus. The sermon was good as usual... The highlight of that service was when pastor darren told us abt jus being bold to tell our friends who do not know Jesus Christ the way we do that He really really loves them so much that He died on the cross for them...so that God sees them as righteous forever! He then called out for those ppl who would like to have that annointing of spreading the word. A LOT of ppl went up to get prayed for, well, i wasnt one of them who went up at first because i wasnt sure if i could..because i know my friends will think i'm trying to psycho them to come to church. Aiyah...i was jus simply afraid la...afraid that my friends will find me irritating. Well..its not that i've never tried...I'VE TRIED! i really even thought of giving up and jus loving them for who they are. All of a sudden...i began to tremble a lil bit..i wasnt cold at all.. i dont know why...there was this prompting in me to go up...before i went up...i told God that i'm just gonna depend on Him to get my friends saved at the right place and right time....esp someone very special to me.

Alright...i'm getting really sleepy...its already close to 5 am..shall blog again soon. nites!