why?

Went to church today...as usual...i was late for service. pastor prince was preaching abt the type of music we ought to listen which makes us feel merry. well, jus to name a few genres he suggested were classical and annointed music, guess its christian music. the ones he strongly did not recommend listening to were rocknroll and heavy metal. Well...i agree with pastor prince only to a certain extend. Emo music makes ppl more emo. The blues makes ur day blue. heavy metal makes ppl more heavy burdened, stressed and angry. Classicals makes some ppl, like me, fall asleep very easily, more relaxed and calmed. Oldies brings back memories abt the good old times to our folks. Finally christian music..hmm..i cant describe it. Anyway...HOWEVER, rocknroll rocks! Well it depends what kinda rock u listening to...screamo and shit aint cool, but bands like lifehouse,oasis,coldplay,story of the year, the used..blah blah blah..are really pleasant to my ears. To me, there are songs which makes u really happy, moody, sad..whatever. It really depends on each individual different genres of music they prefer listening to. On the other hand, it also depends on the type of music one is exposed to or influenced since young.

Moving on, had a good time catching up with wan hua after service over lunch. did a lil bit of window shopping after that. DAMN..it sucks to be broke during the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE. why doesnt a sale come when i hv the cash? it always comes when i dont hv enough. Anyway, went to meet ariel,leon and mukund to catch XMEN 3. Its def much better than the other two. Bloody hell, we had to take the front row seats and it was freaking cold. Mukund was shivering so much that he kept shaking the chair. I thought he was jacking off. wth. Hahahahaa!

I wonder if talking to u on the phone almost everyday has become a routine that u're sick and tired of. when u told me u needed space, i began to ask myself dont u have all the space u want? we're thousands of miles apart and the only form of communicating is over the webcam and the phone. at most i give a call or 2 a day. maybe 3 times on some occasions. i do the calling most of the time even though its makes more sense for u to call because its cheaper. Everytime the bill comes in..i give a sigh, trust n believe that God has taken care of it and put a smile on my face. To be honest, I really dont mind buying calling cards jus to call u..infact its my pleasure to do so cos i understand u hv tonnes of hmw. I thank Him that i have been able to pay off the bills with my pocket money and survivng for the past few months. I'm not complaining...i just dont understand. I've been giving my best n now u want space? Am i trying too hard? If i am, why didnt u tell me at the beginning? Why now when you're coming back in 3 weeks? sigh.

(Apparently my so called brother thinks i've been using his mobile phone to call and caused his bills to hit $180 plus. well..i'm not gonna dedicate one long paragraph to him.waste of space and my time. i dont need to prove myself innocent cos i am.)

I've said enough.
If its space u want, then it'll be space u'll get.

4 more weeks..

this is my life
its not what it was before
all these feelings i've shared
and these are my dreams
that i'd never lived before
somebody shake me
'cause i
i must be sleeping

[chorus]

now that we're here,
it's so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
all the mistakes,
one life contained
they all finally start to go away
now that we're here its so far away
and i feel like i can face the day i can forgive
and i'm not ashamed to be the person that i am today

these are my words
that i've never said before
i think i'm doing okay
and this is the smile
that i've never shown before
somebody shake me 'cause i
i must be sleeping

[chorus]

i'm so afraid of waking
please don't shake me
afraid of waking
please don't shake me

(staind-so far away)

I miss her so damn much. =(

4 more weeks and counting

and another Sunday

Didnt go to church today. Woke up at abt 12 plus to hv my breakfast, watched a bit of tv and then i decided to go back to sleep and woke up at abt 7. Gave my mum a Mother's Day hug and big fat kiss after i woke up. i didnt brush my teeth when i did that. HAHAHAHAHAHAA!!! I'm surprised that my mum still called me a good son despite not giving her any present but only a kiss. I feel so bad. But i think she understands, she knows that most of my money has been going into phone bills. Its not an excuse, therefore i'm gonna get her something nice tmr. Anyway..we went for dinner at Rendevous Hotel and thats sunday for me. pretty vague and boring.

I hate it when ppl dont admit their mistakes. When ever the internet is down, i'm always the one who fixes it. Why? COS I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS HOW TO FIX IT. I hate it when whoever (u should know who u are) says "i dont know" when he or she was the last one using the com. All he or she knows is to bitch that the internet is not working, ask me howcome its not working (as if i know what the fuck u did to the damn com), sometimes keep quiet about it and act as if he or she is innocent and expect me to fix it for them. FUCK! After its fixed, all i hear is an "OK." WTF. only an ok? I think i'm too nice. Too damn nice to be pushed around. All they know is to use to com and cry for help when the internet is down. Bloody mofo. It wont be the same the next time this happens.


"Sorry if i seemed shocked over what u told me. It seemed really sudden to me and i think it would be better if we sit down, have some coffee and just talk. =) looks like u've got lots of things to update me!"

Its down to 6 weeks now.

I need God.

disfucktioned

Just another sunday

omg..my mum jus screamed cos a roach flew out of the store room when she opened the door. hahahahahahahahahahaha!!!! i was shocked initially, but i couldn't stop laughing after that. thought she saw a freaking ghost in the store room.

anyway, today's our 3rd month! =) wanted to get a barbie doll for her at toys r us but i couldnt decide which to get. it was so weird standing at the barbie section by myself. oh wells, i shall wait for her to come back then we'll go hunting for her barbie.

i attended 3rd service today. pastor lian was saying something about not barking..cos only dogs bark. so what will my mum be labelled as if she barks like a dog? i rest my case. if only my mum was there..

watched Mission Impossible 3 with my family after church. It was good...but i personally prefer M.I 2. Damn...the lambo gallardo in the movie is HOT!! I wonder if they blew up a dummy lambo or the real one.

ok. gtg call that special someone. =) byeee.