rozanne...

23rd Jan 06, the date which i was not really looking forward to since the day i found out that roz was going to study in melb, has already past. Tried my best to hold back my tears when i saw her off at the airport, it was only after she said her goodbyes and when she called me before boarding the plane that i couldnt hold back no more. It'll be another 5 months till she returns. I'm jus gonna wait for her. Now that she has left for melb...its gonna be so different here for me. 4 days have past since she left..i miss the times we talked on the phone every night before we head to bed, miss jus having her right beside me, well i jus miss the times i spent with her though i only had a few months to spend time with her. I have wondered and asked myself why werent we together in the past a couple of times. We've known each other for 4 yrs and each time i bumped into or meet up like once every month or 2...i felt so comfortable just being around her...i could click with her instantly. I dont know how to describe this feeling. I knew i had a chance with her back then...but i was too afraid to ask. I was a coward then. Now i'm paying the price for the mistakes i made in the past. Anyway...shall not dwell on that. I've learnt from them and i'm not gonna make the same mistake twice. Hmmm...the past 4 days were not too bad..i gotta webcam with her a couple of times...at least there was some form of communication though we dont get to be right next to each other..and i thank God for that. Thank God for webcams too! =) Anyway..i gotta go soon..cos class is abt to start. Before i end..i jus pray that God will make this 5 months of waiting seem really really short supernaturally...and i also pray that God will watch over her and keep her away from danger and harm in aus. Alright..shall be back soon (i hope) to update. God bless...

I miss and <3 roz.

DontForgetAboutUs
bren =)

F E V E R

Had a tummy ache when i woke up...spent close to 20 mins in the toilet...decided to take a cab to school...wow...traffic WAS GREAT! Jams Jams Jams... Anyway..i was late for school. Didnt feel too good as i was approaching school..i began to give out cold sweat. I jus hate having a FEVER esp on a cold day. Gosh..I brought an umbrella out today and guess what?! i didnt even use it. But i'm still gonna bring it..the weather's really so unpredictable. Anyway...i bought 2 panadols during lunch today. I couldnt decide on whether to get the really strong or normal panadol. U see..the strong one causes drowsiness really easily while the other is not that bad. Guess what alicia said? "AIYAH..What difference does it make? U will still sleep in class." WTH. -_- Ok it wasnt really strong...i could stay awake during lessons...jus wasnt really focused. Yup..school ended at 5 plus...supposed to end at 6. Hmmm..alright...guess i shall stop here.


bren

1st day of school

I WASNT LATE FOR SCHOOL. I WAS ON TIME. =) Yeap..in fact i was on the dot. There were no lessons today...basically introductions of our new trainers and course tutor. Oh and not forgetting the voting of our new class reps. Ok..meng jin and bernard are the new class reps. I'm sorry but i think the class shouldnt elect him as a class rep because he is capable of buying lunch for us. Well..i'll jus see how he performs. Meng jing is alright...i guess she's mature enough.

Anyway, school ended early today and it was raining very heavily. Thank God i didnt catch a cold because i was walking under the rain. Well...thats basically what i did for today. Didnt do much...was on the com since i got home. Nothing special abt today.

Tmr's gonna be really boring...the initial plan was to go watch a movie with roz, casey and parv..but roz cant make it. =(( And it would be kinda weird if its jus me casey and parv. Alrighty...Selamat Hari Raya to all. =)

bren

bev's gone, she's gonna be next

it was raining very heavily the whole day...i hate it when it rains while i'm out...esp when it doesnt stop. Why? Cos it spoils my hair!! Arggh! Anyway..went to church in the morning..then i went to cine to meet roz, vA, cliff and geri. Then we walked over to orchard mrt via taka-wisma to meet the rest.

We took a train down to the airport to see bev off. Oh my...matt was already tearing then. All of sudden...i began to think how the atmosphere would be like and whether i will be crying like a mofo or not when i see her off in 2 weeks time. Chances are...*siigh*. 2 WEEKS is all i have left to spend time and try to work things out. Its jus so hard...so damn hard for me to see her go, not knowing whether she will wait....or jus find another guy there. LOOK HERE! I LOVE HER SO SO MUCH. I dont wanna just enjoy my last 2 weeks with her...and just slowly forget about her when she's in aus. I cant just do that! I dont want to! Its jus...not me. I'm not that jerk. (Fuck that jerk!). I've known her for 4 yrs... I gave up going after her back in sec 3... tried again in sec 5...i was too late. I'm so not gonna give up again. Not gonna make the same mistake twice. Once was good enough to make me regret alot.

Sch's starting tmr...and that means i can only spend time with her after school on certain days..cos there are days i end really late. 2 weeks...2 more weeks...I'm gonna make the best out of it.

IseeHerFaceWithEveryBreathITake

bren