friends
i was reading becky's blog and her post was
"pretty girls have many friends. true or not?"
and she said that she could count with one hand the number of friends she have that she knows, who are jus a phone call away. you may think its sad or pathetic cos she's fugly, i'm sorry but she isnt. well lets not just focus on "pretty girls" but everyone. I remember when i was 16 or 17, yes the early ages of "friendster", and i was "wowed" with the hundreds of friends semiramis had because mine was way pathethic as compared with hers. I desired to be "popular" like her because i thought it would be great to be seen and known when you're hanging out with pals in town. Something like your typical highschool dream.
To cut a long story short, that desire i had when i was 16 or 17 has faded. Yes i do miss those times socialising and getting to know more people. However i realised that i really couldnt juggle my lifestyle with the vast number of friends that i made. Please to not be fooled by the "580 friends" that i have in my friendster. Majority of them are friends that i've made throughout my years in school and have yet catch up, least keep in contact. Everytime i see that i have 580 friends on my list, sometimes i wish i nv made so many friends cos i wont want to disappoint them. But then again, those friends came in different phases of my life...yup as the saying goes, "friends come and go". Especially friends who were once in their darkest moments but made use of you to get to know your friends and forget about you. scheming huh?
However, a part of me just refuses to believe that statement entirely. Although friends go, they leave behind an impact that they have made in my life. Most of my friends from ACS (barker) and my so called few months in ACJC, i hardly keep in touch. Except for a few ex-classmates and the brotherhood. And now SHATEC(DHM), i can say that i wont be in contact with most of them. Ironically, it happens in church too. I've made so many friends, hung out with different groups and they have been a great blessing and impacted my life in one way or another. The same goes to the brotherhood, most of them hv been a great blessing to me and impacted my life in different ways, both big and small. But recently i feel distant from the brotherhood. I dont know why, but...ahh. The S'ses, one of the closest group of friends i have made in church. Sigh, this sucks. It seems i have taken it all for granted all these while or i really just couldnt handle having so many friends.
I'm not perfect. I've made costly mistakes, resulting in losing friends before, not to mention a bestfriend/girlfriend whom i really love and treasure so much.
i think i'll be contented with keeping a small group of close friends/bros as i grow older.
"you dont really know what you've got until its gone."
To cut a long story short, that desire i had when i was 16 or 17 has faded. Yes i do miss those times socialising and getting to know more people. However i realised that i really couldnt juggle my lifestyle with the vast number of friends that i made. Please to not be fooled by the "580 friends" that i have in my friendster. Majority of them are friends that i've made throughout my years in school and have yet catch up, least keep in contact. Everytime i see that i have 580 friends on my list, sometimes i wish i nv made so many friends cos i wont want to disappoint them. But then again, those friends came in different phases of my life...yup as the saying goes, "friends come and go". Especially friends who were once in their darkest moments but made use of you to get to know your friends and forget about you. scheming huh?
However, a part of me just refuses to believe that statement entirely. Although friends go, they leave behind an impact that they have made in my life. Most of my friends from ACS (barker) and my so called few months in ACJC, i hardly keep in touch. Except for a few ex-classmates and the brotherhood. And now SHATEC(DHM), i can say that i wont be in contact with most of them. Ironically, it happens in church too. I've made so many friends, hung out with different groups and they have been a great blessing and impacted my life in one way or another. The same goes to the brotherhood, most of them hv been a great blessing to me and impacted my life in different ways, both big and small. But recently i feel distant from the brotherhood. I dont know why, but...ahh. The S'ses, one of the closest group of friends i have made in church. Sigh, this sucks. It seems i have taken it all for granted all these while or i really just couldnt handle having so many friends.
I'm not perfect. I've made costly mistakes, resulting in losing friends before, not to mention a bestfriend/girlfriend whom i really love and treasure so much.
i think i'll be contented with keeping a small group of close friends/bros as i grow older.
"you dont really know what you've got until its gone."
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1:39 AM
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