A bad start with a GREAT ending.

hello there ppl. =) well...i've finally decided to take time off to blog after such a long long time. I've always wanted to blog a very long time ago...but i didnt have the time. There have been alot of thoughts running in my mind lately and think blogging would be one of the way to let it all out. Alright...let me give an intro abt myself. I'm Brendan, jus turned 18 not too long ago..(5th of July to be exact), currently doing a diploma in hotel management at shatec, a very interesting course i must say. Before this, I used to study in a pretty stucked up sch, which i shall not name, before transfering to Anglo-Chinese School (Barker Rd) for only a yr in 2004. I'm sure u guys must be thinking i'm nuts to transfer on the yr of the BIG O's...yeah i am...thats because i've always wanted to transfer since i was in sec 1..and yeah..i prayed abt it when i really gotta know abt the Grace of God and how much he really really loves me...that was in sec 4.. It was only then when i began to be conscious that Jesus loves me so much that i finally could transfer! It was truely by God's GRACE that i got into that school. There was this big challenge i had to take on if i wanted to transfer...i had to change my subject combinations...and they were seriously major changes. Had to take on pure geog when i did only sub geog...take on sub lit and sub chem... I seriously had no knowledge for those subs..but frankly...because i wanted to transfer so badly...i jus said ok. Oh wells..i had a hard time with chem and geog...was failing throughout the yr. Alright...lets not talk abt result. i really had a great time in barker...met friends i knew back in primary sch (i was from ACS Junior) and made lots of new friends. Joined rugby and track...gosh i really love playing rugby! Its much fun than soccer...infact more tiring too. Gosh...those were the hey days man...that was the best secondary sch yr in my life! To cut a long story short, i didnt do that well for my o's...failed comb science..yeah..and that really cut me off with alot of courses in poly. Well...alot of ppl ask me this question.. "Do u regret transfering to barker?" because they felt i could get better grades for o levels if i sticked to that stucked up sch. I felt that was a really good question..so i began to ponder on that. I really went into deep thoughts...but i felt that i wouldnt have enjoyed myself so much if i continued studying in that hell hole. Going back to that school for 4 yrs was like a chore to me...and for the first time after going back to acs...i was really enthusiastic to go to sch! Damn i really love the uniform...it has by far the best design for sch uniforms in the world! No Shhhitttt!! hurhur~ However...i must agree that i think i might hv done better if i stucked to the subs i've been doing...but sch would be damn boring. SO...the answer i gave was NO! N,O. NO! i dont regret at all! and will never will! Why do i say so? its because i wouldnt be where i am now and i wouldnt have the friends i hv now if i did not transfer. And throughout my time in barker...God has blessed me tremendously! To make it short. I jus love that school. Yeap...so thats all abt it for now. Wow...pretty long intro eh!? Haha~

Alright...a brand new week has started...and it wasnt a good start. Well basically...i failed my progress test in school (i think). Its actually quite simple...all i had to do was to set up the table for fine-dining and change table cloths..Easy right? Yeah...how dumb of me for being incompetent. I was given 2 tries...but i jus made mistakes after mistakes. Okok...before i came to school...i forgot to bring my vest, bow tie and put on a belt. How could i forget even when i ASKED johnny if he brought and he even asked me if i had a spare belt. I've come to realise that they were actually all promptings from God and the holy spirit...but i jus didnt follow. Siigh...the importance of listening to the holy spirit i learned. Hmmm...to be honest...i felt pretty condemned on my way to school..."where were my common sense? GOSH...its a TEST...and i jolly well should know what to bring." Reached school...saw that ZIN and i got a scolding for that...EXPECTED. What a way to start off ur day eh? Then i walked up to meet alicia and kuang...really felt like jus skipping school..even if i had sat for the test..i would hv FAILED right? so why bother? Haha~ Jesus worked his first miracle for the day...kuang asked rai if he had extra in school...and THANK GOD RAI had. Alright...i felt my prayer worked...because alicia told me that all i could do was to pray on my way to school, which worked.

To cut a long story short...i was really nervous while waiting for my turn...so i jus sang praises and prayed in tongues discreetly. Then..it was my turn..together with fiona and alicia. *grand welcome* All hell broke loose for me...was caught for not wearing a belt..got 10 marks deducted for that! Argghh...not only that...i had to go for 2 attempts..which i screwed up. I was at the verge of giving up..well...i've already failed...so why bother doing the 3rd time for 20%?! Ah...what the hell...i jus did it again..and it was ok la. After changing of table cloths...came to the setting up of the table. Things jus went WRONG...ALL WRONG...alignment wasnt there...took the wrong fork...blah blah...SHit balls man! Ok...baljit, my trainer, told me quite nicely that my performance was SHIT. Yeah...how nice...however he told me that he has great expectations of me..and he expects me to do better next term. Siiigh...not only hv i let myself down...but ppl who hv hope in me too. I felt really really LOUSY...so lousy to the point that i almost broke down in tears. (Hey...its Jesus who is in ME u looking at! Greatly Blessed, Highly Favoured and Deeply Loved child of God. How can i fail?!) Siiigh...that wasnt the only test i had to sit for...i had another later in the evening...Basic Theory Test for driving. Btw...its a retest. I wasnt even prepared at all...was only preapared to fail it. All the faith i had jus disappeared in an instant.

After going through shame and embarrassment...i went home to get changed to see my doctor..then went down to town to meet yong jie, tim (to get my back my clay which i left in his bag on sunday) and his family. Chatted with them for awhile...talked abt "the blessed christmas" live recording...HAHA~ Had a great time there...taking pictures with the leaders and friends, taking pictures for someone...hahaha~ =p Basically my role was to act as a crazy fan...running after the cast of shooting stars, SLY(gosh..so beng), OLINDA and DAPHNE(gosh..so short), with other DARE and CAMPUS youths. Hahaha~ sounded really boring...i skipped school for one day jus to come for rehearsals...and that was my only role. BUT BUT!!!! I felt the holy spirit in ME telling me that it doesnt matter how small ur role is in the show...but do it knowing that the non-believers out there will be blessed and touched, knowing how much JESUS loves them. WOW! REVELATION to me! =D Alright...lets side track...*ahem*, after meeting them...i rushed down to ubi driving centre for my theory test....had no time to revise...so i expected that i would fail la. Anyway...thank god i wasnt late. =D I sat down..answered the questions...didnt bother checking them...and i jus ended my paper...and guess what? PRAISE JESUS....I PASSED! OMG!! I PASSED! I jus couldnt believe it! Its definitely grace...because it was def JESUS! WOOHOO!! I'm one more step closer to getting my license...cant wait to drive LEGALLY. hehe~ I rejoiced! Hahaha~ All of a sudden...everything unpleasant which happened since the start of the day till i sat for the test were ALL GONE!

Only then i began to remember that Jesus still remained so faithful despite me cursing and swearing...not believing in Him. Thanks to smallBOK, i feel so much better now... Haha~ cant believe she decided to take a break off her tutorials to share and chat with me. Hahaha~ thanks mandybok! =) Wah...power man! He still chose to love me although i rejected Him. HE LOVES ME! I AM THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF CHRIST JESUS!!! HE LIVES IN ME!! Therefore he follows me where ever i go.. In the midst of the storm...through the winds and the waves...HE was still faithful. =) Ohhh..i jus love that song. My Jesus.. Am lost for words...haha~ =D Alright..think i shall stop here and get back to complete my project.

*shalom and God bless. =)